Sigh, i'm beginning to lag in my maths and statics... i'm starting to get lost around the corners. I hate it when i stare at the tutorial for more than a minute wondering what to do next. Whether to try writing some random lines and see whether it links to the answer, or just plain give up.

Maybe it's due to the amount of lectures i've been skipping? maybe it's my inefficacy for maths and statics. Well, i don't really blame myself for sucking at statics. I blame the lecturer and the lousy planning to have to go to school just to hand up one assignment question on an EMPTY Tuesday.

Sorry to be lamenting my plight to you, the esteemed reader. Yet, i feel that i need to vent out my vexations over this online portal where drugs, sex and pop-culture over rules everything and anything academic. Why can't i just have a talent? Having a talent is so much easier. You just have to do what you're good at and you get paid, you get recognition, you get satisfaction. How many of us, students of this wretched education system actually feels satisfied solving problem 1 to 15 without a quagmire of difficulty? Well, the general student populace would probably feel happy if we get to sleep at 3am after attempting problem 1 umpteen times and still not getting "it". "It" being the crux of solving the problem or the answer.

Well, many of us will have varying opinions on what we have for a so-called education system. I feel that the system makes us grow up too quick. Too quick were the days gone where i used to play in the gardens and get mud all over my body. Gone were those days i plucked street side flowers to sucked them for nectar. Why is that? Probably due to the education system. Since our education system rewards merit, studies have become our number 1 priority. Who exactly managed to stay out till 8pm catching butterflies in your neighbourhood park? Who could stay over at your friend's house to play sonic on sega 16-bit? Who managed to get a whole set of creepy crawlies set without ASKING your parents?

Totally peeved about my tutorials. It's a roller coaster ride of emotions. Bah. I can't be bothered anymore to attempt it again.